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[08 Oct 2005|03:32pm] |
ok so yeah i know i dont post... and you arent really gonna see me doing so... i am taking five minutes to do so now to say two things:
1. for the forseeable future please dont worry about my lj.. i have started to hate this thing.. very little if anything at all will be put here and unless you tell me specifically about some post of yours you want me to read.. well its not going to happen... LJ makes me sick everytime i try.. thank you...
2. heads up and a request for assistance... i am heading up the anime room at owlcon this year.. *blinks*.. wheee! anyways.. if i run it round the clock thru the con that means i have 50 hours of anime to find to play and also 50 hours of work for volunteers who wish to sit and watch said anime... i also will prolly be wanting to use some AMVs as fillers btwn shows (which may or may not need to be DVD format) this is in a few months and any help that anyone offers or suggestions on animes i may not have yet found.. are totally welcome. that said... post it here or send it to my email (sprite_lj@hotmail.com) or call me! (leave a message)
take care all of you *hugs and kisses*
ps.. i think i might manage to pull all A's this semester
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[26 May 2005|01:28pm] |
and i swear, just when you think youre ok with everything... youre not. theres always some new bit of information that makes you sick to your GD stomach. i'm in a bit of a slump this week and mildly oversensitive, i know this... but i also know there are things that consistently bother me that i guess are my issue to deal with... i dunno maybe they're not.. all i know is over the last few weeks there ahve been alot of moments where i have wondered if reworking my relationships with damn near everyone (as in comepletely changing who i spend time with etc) is the solution... some things just dont change so sometimes other things need to... i dunno maybe i'll feel better after i stop getting bad news... after i stop putting my stupid girlie hopes on BS that is never going to come true. chalk this one up to a bad week folks, no biggie LOL after a while you get used to it...
oddly enough, all that being said for the most part i have better over the last few months than i had in ages.. *shrugs* its prolly jsut the little stuff that is all starting to weigh down a bit, it happens and will get better soon ^_^
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| public service announcement.... |
[26 May 2005|01:14pm] |
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my phone doesnt like me, so if youve been trying to call i apologize but i am special and left my charger at ash's this weekend so havent been able to use it much cause its dying and yeah... so ash if ya see this could you bring my charger to styg's later? *hughug all*
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[25 May 2005|01:37am] |
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omg... the spiders on the porch are back *shudders*
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| short update... |
[20 May 2005|04:23am] |
ok first off i would like my friends to stop letting me watch sappy romances late at night at home alone, they make me cry or puke or both... >< guess thats the cynic in me...
schools out and i got my grades...
Algebra was the F i expected...
Sociology was a C
Government a B
and i pulled my A in English ^_^ *dances*
ummm other than that.. jonathan is doing well... my friends are mostly ok and the ones that arent.. i love you and am here for you, always.
and in June not only do i get to see Courtney graduate but as long as he gets the time off i finally get to meet ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) prototype01_sol which makes me happier than most of you can imagine.... on that note i am gonna try to go to bed in a good mood since pretty much everyone i know is asleep and yeah...
<3!!!
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| a child's wisdom |
[01 Apr 2005|07:12pm] |
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so i picked up Jonathan today ^_^ and in the car we had an interesting discussion...
J1: I haven't seen any of my enemies lately... The Decepticons..
M: Well, I am sure you'll see some this weekend buddy.. after all James is gonna see you...
J1: OH! I KNOW James is a Decepticon... he tricks us.. but I know he's a Decepticon...
M: *laughs* ok
so we get James to take him for dinner and I relate the conversation to him..
J2: *laughs*
J1: Yeah, you're Megatron!!!!
M: omg...
J1: See Eema! He jsut tried to put on an Autobots symbol but we know...
J2: *laughs ass off*
J1: I'm Optimus Prime!! and Eema.. you're Bumblebee!
M: *laughs* OK buddy ^_^ Tell you what.. I'll introduce you to Starscream this weekend ok? *thinking of stygian*
J1: OK!
we get to Taco Bell and the conversation of where James has his symbols continues and James points out that he doesn't think Megatron ever bought Optimus Dinner.. I told him that he would if it would have furthered his plans... Jonathan's response: "I'd kill you." Poor James is traumatized again remembering that it didn't happen that way LOL...
Now James thought this was all hilarious, as did I... but he missed the next part... as Jonathan and I drove home he asked me if I "knew what else about Starscream...?" I said "No, what?" he says... "He smokes too..." Now I REALLY laugh my ass off and tell him yes indead Starscream does smoke...
so yeah.. my son and transformers... *shakes head laughing*
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| small post and quiz |
[31 Mar 2005|01:18pm] |
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ok if youre not hearing from me.. its cause i have been working on: an annotated bibliography, a ten page research paper, three tests, 2 sociology projects, and a weekend with my son coming up... so yeah dont take it all personal like LOL
the quiz i took cause ash made me... i will get to all the little survery things i want to do later.. <3333!
You are Foamy.
Congratulations, you are a rage filled squirrel who
spouts his views at any given moment. You know
what you like, (bagels with cream cheese) and
what you don't. (everything else) Chill out
before you give yourself an ulcer.
Which Neurotically Yours (Foamy) Character are you???
brought to you by Quizilla
*sighs* i thought i was less rage filled these days... then again there was no way i couldve gotten some of the other chars so enh... fuckin quiz
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[26 Mar 2005|02:55am] |
umm whee for geekness! nifty glowy furniture in FF11 makes me happy...
saw bicentennial man tonight... good movie... left me feeling multiple emotions...
met kerry... nuff said. (see icon)
night all!
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[25 Mar 2005|04:32am] |
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finished boogiepop phantom with ash tonight... was pretty good and made much more sense by the time it all got tied in together ^_^ most everything i am eating is still leaving me nauseated.. thats not fun but enh... cest la vie.. school is busy adn so's life but i got to see natalie yesterday which made me very happy as well so yea!!!! anyways.. time for some sleep tonight and then gonna visit happy mike tomorrow and yeah ^^ *runs off to call mary and remind her to wake up* <33333!!!!
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[23 Mar 2005|05:51pm] |
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ok cause i soooo needed this today.... i HATE school. my research proposal was rejected... we were told that it had to be something in our txtbook... well apparently that meant it had to be something about IRAQ in our textbook so i have to start all over and on a subject i dont want to work on.. when we were told we should make it something we wanted to work with... will anyone please jsut shoot me?
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[23 Mar 2005|05:13pm] |
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thank you all who commented to my last post and huge hugs to each of you....
on that note...i dont know how i push away everyone... funny thats one thing ash and i seem to have in common, we get scared and hurt and jsut start pushing people away when all we really want is to cry out "hold me, please gods hold me and dont let me go...".. its like if we dont open up like that and they walk away then we'll be ok cause we can pretend we didnt want them here anyways... and it really doesnt make us ok... it just makes you crazy... i keep trying to open up and i keep getting hurt and i am becoming afraid to open up anymore... i dont want to act like i care because then how do i deal if it doesnt matter? how do i say "i care adn i dont want to see you go and i want to figure this out and i need you to try to udnerstand me" when i am afraid the answer will be "well this is your problem and i dont care how you feel..." i jsut want to be a kid again when i could hide in my parents arms and they could tell me it would be ok and i believed them... i'd take that right now.. and i know there are people who would hold me and tell me it will be ok... but it never seems to be the one who can actually make it better will tell you that... the person you are fighting with never wants to sit down and tell you it will be ok... and the last time they did.. i didnt believe them... maybe thats the problem... maybe i jsut dont believe them anymore...
i'm so tired.....
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[23 Mar 2005|01:14pm] |
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so other than my son... *sighs* i dont even know what to talk about... my hobby is rapidly losing all its fun b/c people's stupity permeates everything no matter what it is... school is boring and stressful, stupid basic classes... i've had so much to talk to someone about lately and no one to talk to...i guess its time to go looking for new confidantes... i've had a couple moments of awesome learning and progress and i wish i could figure out who to share it with... at the same time i have a pit inside that i need someone to talk to about and i dont know where to go there either... sometimes i wonder if turning it all off would help... i am sleeping and not feeling rested when i wake up... i managed to eat a little last night and had to concentrate on not throwing it up... i guess as long as i have my son and a future to work on nothing else matters... maybe i have always trusted too easily... my father thinks so... he feels bad for teaching me to trust others b/c of how many times it has gotten me hurt... then again maybe the bad part was teaching me to think for myself... i dont know. guess it really is time to rework my life... and i am thiknking a damn near new start with mostly fresh faces might not be a bad idea...no i dont know where all this is going or coming from.. i jsut kmow i woke up feeling like shit and its like the third day in a row... and i am tired of it. so i want iot to change nad no one can change it but me so now i have to figure out how. cause i dont think i have anyone to help me on this one. guess i am just feeling kind of alone right now....and like everyone else is fine...
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| the bright spot in my life... |
[22 Mar 2005|10:50pm] |
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i got to talk to him today... the boy who means more than anything else in the world to me... yes, i mean my son Jonathan ^_^ i finally got ahold of him and it makes me sooo happy. his father was even decent to me... Jonathan asked why i was crying at one point... when i told him i wasnt he told me he could hear me... but he didnt get the happy tears thing that i was so glad to hear his voice again finally... he called me silly ^^ i get to pick him up a week from friday for the weekend. he told me how much he missed me and said he wanted to stay with me for the whole month of april.. it was hard explaining that i couldnt keep him for quite that long but this summer we'd do that ^_^ i love him soooo much. i cant wait to hold him in my arms again.
and oh.. he's finally acting like a boy... hes been playing with a dead snake... his father told me its ok but i am slightly worried since apparently its a cotton mouth ><;;; that really should be taken away from him..... may he be protected in his innocence.... LOL but still i am proud, its about time he got his hands dirty ^_^
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| MEW! |
[11 Mar 2005|05:44am] |
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umm so yeah... i blame.. no one but myself... ^_^
I shamelessly stole the icon from somewhere and have found several sites i have bookmarked already hehe
Mary.. this link is for you...kyo/yuki ^^ not dirty really but nice none the less
http://fruitloopsgallery2.tripod.com/furuba/kyou_yuki_02.jpg
This link is because i can... if youre at work dont click it!!! (its got Hatsuharu in it ^_^, course it also has momiji which is WAAAAY underage and kinda disturbing ><;;; and oh yeah theres some xenosaga mixed in on the page i think.. *shrugs*
http://trung.dangduc.free.fr/fruits%20basket/Suki%20Namo%20no%20Ha%20Suki/1.htm
KK for tonight that is all ^_^ more later when i actually have time *loves*
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| mew.. crazy crazy week |
[04 Mar 2005|03:29pm] |
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If you ahvent heard from me this week, its thanks to the group part of my paper and my sociology project.. and oh yeah, cleaning for teh parental units of the housemate that are coming in this weekend... meh.
at the school right now.. jsut finished MORE research on WMDs and alternatives to war with Iraq.. blech
CAT!!! matt shouldnt have problems posting to my LJ unless its an older entry, but Jamie tells me LJ was being ghey that way.. have matt try again.. i didnt block anyone from posting here that i didnt have reason to...
which segways (sp?) into my next minor rant... i come back to LJ thinking it should be safe after all this time but STILL there are things about it, including some of the journals left on my friends list that make me want to scream, throw things, and generally beat people down style (yes i am a geek, FF11 players please imagine those as red and green autotranslate indicators until i bother to look up HTML to make them that way...)
*sighs* i am a lot less angry person these days... it feels good to have started dealing with an old issue or two, and i do mean old... thanks to james and ash for listening about it too... but even being less angry i still have my moments.. i guess they jsut come with being human...
spring break's coming up thank the gods...
oh and paulina!! it was very nice watching buffy with you last night ^_^ and also thanks for the email about teh student services!!! *pouncehuggles* now i am gonna come downstairs and bug you before you leave work ^_^
PS.. mary... i know our LJs are gonna run out in teh next few days and i am sorry, as soon as i ahve money i will pick up the tab, its jsut been rough this month, tell you all about it later *hugs*
LOVE ALL!!!
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| random quote for the day... |
[26 Feb 2005|01:20pm] |
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I love Spike... This has always been one of my fave quotes of his from the Buffy seaspn 3 episode "Lover's Walk". It follows Buffy and Angel claiming they are jsut friends:
Spike: "You're not friends. You'll never be friends. You'll be in love 'til it kills you both. You'll fight, and you'll shag, and you'll hate each other 'til it makes you quiver, but you'll never be friends. Love isn't brains, children, it's blood. Blood screaming inside you to work its will. I may be love's bitch, but at least I'm man enough to admit it."
*giggles* I just always love the way he says the very last line of it ^_^ mmmm british boys... (as Leanne goes enh.. I prefer American boys ^_~)
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